annabelle, visual diary......

（28/4，继续。）

我的说法好像有点年轻，某个程度上事实是已走过了那阶段。
关于城市、飞行又或者时间；曾经，牧羊少年奇幻之旅(paulo coelho/El Alquimista) 好像起了一定的影响。

tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worst than the suffering itself....
《牧羊少年奇幻之旅》保罗科尔贺/ El Alquimista，paulo coelho)，pg138

“我的心很害怕它会受伤。”男孩对练金术士说，那是在某一个晚上，当他们两人坐在沙地里，遥望着无月的天空时。
“告诉你的心，害怕比起伤害本身更糟。而且没有一颗心会因为追求梦想而受伤，因为追寻过程中的每一片刻，都是和神与永恒的邂逅。”

... “世界上的每一个人都有一个宝藏正在等待着他。”心对他说... ...

i believe now my car can fly...
(car servicing cost me RM700 / mileage: 89,451 km)

（25/4，想留话在chatbox给你。有点长，写在这里。）

我驾车经过desa 常见到你。真的很巧。
有时你在我眼前等着交通灯转绿，有时你排队打包食物，有时是你穿褐色格子背个书包走在路旁。
有时大概有个熟人像是巧遇与你聊着，大多数时候都是你自己。
很明显我没有跟踪的意图，也没有刻意留神；
这巧合叫我对你有一份疏离的熟悉。定格在脑袋里某个位置。静态，没有声音。像坐在车里隔着玻璃看到你。
就是这样。

a group show/ lot 2.02 annexe central market /12--18 april 2008

keh soon was exhibiting his drawings in the show/ 21cm x 29.7cm (2-6) / carbon on paper

《朝圣》保罗科尔贺/ the pilgrimage，paulo coelho

pg.032

......派特鲁斯绝对是对的。如果只准许有学问，有时间和金钱去买昂贵书籍的人可以获得真正的知识，
那就太不公平了。
真正的智慧之路，可以用三件事情来辨认，派特鲁斯说：
第一，必须和神的爱(agape)有关...
第二，必须运用在生活中, 否则智慧就没有用处，并且会日益败亡...
最后，必须是任何人都可以走的路...

《心相约》，pg 200 。

问：我采访人，你也采访人，采访了这么多人以后，你最大的感受是什么？
鲁豫：大家都觉得自己不容易。我原来也觉得自己不容易，现在才发现别人比我更不容易。

(...i have a bad temper, i know)
bedtime story for the day。

There once was a little boy who had a bad temper.
His father gave him a bag of nails and told him that every time he lost his temper, he must hammer a nail into the back of the fence.
The first day, the boy had driven 37 nails into the fence.

Over the next few weeks, as he learned to control his anger, the number of nails hammered daily gradually dwindled down. He discovered it was easier to hold his temper than to drive those nails into the fence.
Finally the day came when the boy didn't lose his temper at all.

He told his father about it and the father suggested that the boy now pull out one nail for each day that he was able to hold his temper.
The days passed and the boy was finally able to tell his father that all the nails were gone.

The father took his son by the hand and led him to the fence.
He said,
"You have done well, my son, but look at the holes in the fence. The fence will never be the same. When you say things in anger, they leave ascar just like this one. You can put a knife in a man and draw it out. It won't matter how many times you say I'm sorry the wound is still there.
A verbal wound is as bad as a physical one"

been to an art exhibition...

早上在浴室时没接到电话。
打回手提，不通。
打到住家电话，也不通。
心里有数。

那天傍晚，从HUKM出来。 心中始终忐忑。
终不敢违反心里的感受，临出highway，u-turn转回HUKM；逗留多一点时间。
记得她脸色很好。在睡中也面带笑容。
不敢判断其他。只知道她在ICU那几天精神/心境还好。痛苦很少。

算是，安慰。

...no death leaves those left behind unaffected。

he & his hand-rolled cigarettes。
the only safe cigarette is an unlit one。oops!


she & her drawings。

6:40pm。on my way from kajang。
Charlene sang [ i've never been to me ] on radio FM/light & easy。

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昨天客人讲的东西有点不着边际。

因此尽管很迟了还是决定去 crown princess 。
8:45pm才到。刚开始入正题。
还好去了。

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gabriel, jean。
in my car。

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沉重。
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saturday, late night。

撒上2:30 ...因为尊重我的、我必重看他......

致 c,
大慨我们都明白....
原谅這件事不像喷洒空氣清淨剂那样，只把某些美好而不切实际的理想散佈在生活里。
饶恕帶來痛楚，即使在已原諒之后很长一段时间，那伤口仍存在记忆... （灵命日粮）
我知道不容易。但也知道你一定会要走过去。

matali crasset

http://www.matalicrasset.com/
最难忘记她的蘑菇头。matali crasset。

matali crasset, when jim came to paris

Q: Which of your early projects were most important in establishing you as a designer?

A: I think that the first project which defined my approach to design and was very visible was the bed-lamp-clock installation : When Jim Came to Paris.
The project began in 1985, but it was exhibited at the Satellite exhibition during the Milan Furniture Fair in April 1998. I stayed in Milan for the week of the exhibition so that I could explain the concept behind it in the most favourable way. It was a strange experience. Some people smiled at me. Others shook my hand and said ‘thank you’. The welcoming spirit that I wanted the project to convey was shown in so many small signs and generous gestures.

On the other hand, another important early project was a low-tech one, little more than a gesture really, Digestion (a collection of poufs made from the cheap checked plastic bags usually used for laundry which Edra eventually put into production).

(...speaking of herself, she says that she is a designer – do-it-yourselfer. She works on developing the ideas of modularity, flexibility, hospitality and goodness.

Designing this bed, she solved her own problem:

she needed to accommodate her cousin Jim in her small flat in Paris.

She rejected all folding mechanisms to be the basis of this bed, and created a felt column, which can be turned into a bed by pulling down a zip.

A small reading lamp and an alarm clock are also part of this unusual bed. )

if you could see me now

(Kim Noblitt)

Our prayers have all been answered. I finally arrived.
The healing that had been delayed has now been realized.
No one's in a hurry. There's no schedule to keep.
We're all enjoying Jesus, just sitting at His feet.

Chorus:
If you could see me now, I'm walking streets of gold.
If you could see me now, I'm standing strong and whole.
If you could see me now, you'd know I've seen His face.
If you could see me now, you'd know the pain is erased.
You wouldn't want me to ever leave this place,
If you could only see me now.

My light and temporary trials have worked out for my good,
To know it brought Him glory when I misunderstood.
Though we've had our sorrows, they can never compare.
What Jesus has in store for us, no language can share.
(Chorus twice)

You wouldn't want me to ever leave this perfect place
If you could only see me now
If you could see me now
If you could only see me now

Kim Noblitt, (c) 1992 Integrity's Praise/BMI and Dad and Dann Music
Sung by Truth (Russ Lee, soloist) on "Something to Hold On To," 1992.

a weekend home

星期五晚上。回家。 一路雨，车都驾得慢。

hello, it’s rude to stare...

march。 someone sat in front of me was wearing this...while Dr. Lee talked about gospel & culture。

http://www.chankokhooi.com/

cold cold down/122cm x 107cm/acrylic on canvas/2005。 old photo series: new couple /24" x 30"/acrylic on jute/2007。

lalat, izat。